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21

May

THOUGHTS part two

Pepper spray you thoughts with intelligence,

relevance is the key to success,

running abreast with father time’s test,

some say life can be a hot mess.

Blessed to see the sun rise and set,

don’t fret I’m not miraculous or on that upper echelon yet,

I bet that haters want to see me fall better yet fail,

tell them to sit and wait,

because this journey is like Icing without the cake,

making it took 30 plus years well worth the wait.

Take time to grind as the shine will get dim

while walking upon that that thin line.

Aww shit she sent me pics,

damn she fine,

Queen of queens,

I’ll always love you

Angel Wynn,

From the first time back then,

reminiscing of the good times back when

we were in Cali and back in summer school

when you got my attention.

I’m at attention...

CUMMIN’ HARD

17

May

THOUGHTS part one

some think it’s overrated, relationship status, living life to the fullest…

Don’t need no social network to establish relation, the tenure

or duration. Relationships often feel like being on probation,

People acting up, should get a relationship citation. No matter if we far or near love is in the location…

When significant starts trippin’ it’s a mood deflation. When things are on point then there is standing ovation.

Relationship without sex is like living in dehydration.

When the vibes on point we can feel the unison in the vibration.

When there’s no trippin’ then it’s a good sensation.

Then we may have someone controlling — it’s called relationship

dictation.

But when one start to trippin’, arguing and mumbling,

we need translation…

Don’t be mad at a little cyber flirtation.

It’s just the thing to do in the mist of intimate starvation…

Rest assure we should never bite upon any temptation.

That’s why there is a thing called masturbation…

Watching porno’s is the horny one medication.

Lets get in the grove and do a little simulation.

After a nut or two then comes relaxation…

I can go for days with the ation…

So I stop right now and build the anticipation…

CUMMIN’ HARD 5/17/2013 2:18pm

16

May

Free Style Flow

Ok it’s me CummiN HarD again, doing what I do like back when I was smoove sin, lethal warrior free-styling with a pad and a pen, keys on the board delivering my feelings. Revealing the depths of my inner thoughts, go deep, like submarines. I may say how I feel and it may not come off dirty or clean. Things in my life is like the epitome of strife. My verbs, nouns and pronouns pierce your mind like a knife. Aight there goes the introduction. I’m a leader the drill instructor, construction of a unique growth in crossing paths with entertainment. Freedom of speech, speaking my mind so that you can feel some of what I’m thinking.

14

May

BEDROOM BOOTCAMP! Volume 1

ATTENTION!

I’m your drill instructor

on this mission — nary —

Listen —

clearly,

for the safe word is —

Baby,

Get in - position —

maybe - I’ll take it easy —-

Lately - I been fiend’n for your body —-

greatly,

Don’t hate me…

for fuckin’ without eating,

My chest you beatin’

Your P’essence Leaking

And Qweefing then speaking

My name  - -

while you kissing my nipples

Your ear lobe I nibble

it’s simple — “4play”

licking your doot shoot

I’m holdin’ your hands

“Don’t run away”

A B C’n that clitoris

Making you feel shiver 

this is  the way a scorpio

handle the bed room business

Many positions later you will be

addicted to this…

Written for PDA blog talk show hosted Ms Kiki and her crew.

Cummin’ Hard 5/14/2013 12:25 pm

29

Apr

DADDY LOVES YOU! episode 4

[Flashback]

Curtis puts the cover over his sleeping son and gives him a kiss on the forehead, then walks to the other bed and kisses his sleeping daughter on the forehead. He exits the bedroom. Melody is in the other room on the cell phone and hangs up as Curtis enters.

Curtis narration,“I am not the smartest man in the world. I am not the richest man in the world either. I’ve made money while I was boxing. Just not enough to sustain my family and all of my children. My career took a tremendous tumble a few years ago when I went on a four fight losing streak. Yes, my focus went a bit in disarray as with dealing with my children mother. This is by far the worse situation ever. Coming close to the end,” he narrates on,” of the road. I can see Melody urge to start fights for nothing. Well to her it was about money, I might add and my time spent at the meat packing plant.”

Curtis is in bed with Melody, he’s trying to curl up with her but she scoots further away with her back to him.

Curtis Continues his narration, “I feel like less than a man when it comes to intimacy. She is on the phone more often and always hangs up when I come around or her tone is different. But ohhhh, when the bank account was looking nice and thing was great in her favor, everything between us was wonderful. Felt kind of superficial.”

Curtis enters the house with a long distant look on his face. Melody is in the kitchen cooking dinner. The kids are playing in the by the couch.

He continues his narration. “The day they fired me was rough, I didn’t know how to tell her but it was like a heavy burden on me. I remember telling her while she was cooking.”

Curtis standing in the kitchen talking to Melody. Melody is stirring some stew in a pot. She forcefully throws the spoon into the pot, looks at Curtis and storms into the living room. She grabs her keys and summons the children to follow her out of the house leaving Curtis standing there with a sad look.

Curtis narration continues,” I felt like a ton of bricks smashed my heart in when she left. She came back later that night all happy and in a different attitude. I couldn’t figure it out. It was like night and day. She even gave me some that night, but it felt different. I mean really different. A man knows when the pussy he’s been with is different, and this night it was.”

Curtis is on top of Melody in a missionary position, raises up and grabs her legs in a ten and two. His facial expression is not of pleasure, but of what the hell is this. He tries to show pleasure but his focus on the different feel of the inner loins of the canal his penis is placed.

Curtis narrates on. “That really drawn my attention about her sudden happiness and willing to have sex with me after holding out for damn near a month. I went to find another meat packing job, the only thing I know, besides of boxing most of my life. To no avail, nobody was hiring. Melody was hanging out more often, sticking me with the kids, which I may say was no problem at all. A few mystery calls came in which ultimately prompted my investigations. Melody worked for Borders book store as a manager. So I paid a neighbor to watch the kids while I go camp out and watch what she was doing? Boy did I get an eye full.”

Day time, Curtis is in his car with mini binoculars watching the store. It’s night time now, the store closes. A Black Jaguar pulls up to the store with a tall, walrus looking, not so handsome male standing outside of the car, it is Kenneth. The employees exits from the store and Melody runs into Kenneth arms for a hug and a kiss.

My heart fell to my ankles after seeing that. This charade went on for a few months. I confronted her a few times about the guy in the Jag, telling her a friend of mine seen them together. She gets defensive of course telling me to tell my friend to get a life. Everything was weighing heavy on me now. She wasn’t giving me sex again, weeks past, and my bills are piling up which she isn’t helping me anymore. My car is on the verge of being repo’d and she’s threatening to leave if I don’t find a job soon. I remember going through this before with my other kids mother while I was boxing. I might add is one of the reason why I lost focused in the first place. It felt like the world was crumbling around me.” Curtis narrates as he sound like he is crying. “One night I wake up and she is gone. Her side of the bed is empty, I run to the kids room and they are gone. A note on the kitchen table says GET A LIFE. Soon after I plea for her to come back. Bills piles, landlord is threatening eviction and my world has now became upside down. I called Darnell my best friend but I owe him like $5,000 dollars.

Curtis comes home to see a pad lock on the door and all of his possessions on the curb being rummaged through by stragglers. He sits on the curb soon after in an angered state of mine.

“I know what to do, I just end it all… Nobody cares, nobody love me.” Curtis Narrates.

TO BE CONTINUED…

DADDY LOVES YOU! episode 3

We hear the sound of the GUN BANG…

Curtis falls to the side in slow motion meeting his scattered brain matter and skull fragments as some of his blood splashes upon his face. His eyes are open, a blood drop trails down his left eye like a tear as if he’s crying. THEN:

We hear a splash…

Curtis sits up from the floor with a shocked look on his face, standing over him is his best friend Darnell with a subway bag and cup of water.

“Wake up fool!” says Darnell

Curtis looks around to see that he is in the same room, Candles burned out and Darnell pulling a milk crate near to sit on.

“You need to get your ass in gear dude, I’m not going to keep saving your ass man.” Says Darnell as he hands him the bag.

Curtis looks over to see the gun is still on the floor. He pinches his face to see if he isn’t dreaming.

“Thanks bro.” Says Curtis.

“Don’t thank me dude. Look, you need to get your ass out of this self pity shit. Melody has moved on, your kids are getting older and you…” Darnell words are cut off by Curtis.

“You know how she gets down, you see how she throws all of that shit in my face. The numerous courts cases we’ve been through man. I’m sick and tired. I can’t keep a fuckin’ job because of my other 3 kids mom.” Curtis.

Darnell is mimicking playing a violin . “Same ole sad song dude.”

“Listen did you come here to dog me or what?” said Curtis.

“My girl is leaving for Rome for a few weeks, you can stay with me and clean yourself up. You smell like a sess-pool. I’ll go get you some clothes man. I can’t stand seeing you like this. How long are you going to put yourself through this?” asks Darnell.

Curtis takes a sandwich out of the bag and take a few bites. Talking with a mouth full. “Thanks Nell man, I don’t know when I’m coming or goin’. Melody has really fucked my world bro. I…”

“You should get back into boxing dude. It was your calling. I know until you met Melody, don’t give me that shit dude. You could have jumped back into the ring right after you got let go from the meat plant.” says Darnell

“I’m 40 who and I hadn’t been  in the ring in 8 years,” Curtis still eating, ” I don’t know bro.”

“Listen asshole,”Darnell says sarcastically, ” Finish that sandwich and meet me outside. You will be back on your game dude.”

Darnell gets up and leave the room.

ONE WEEK LATER…

Curtis looking a little bit better, dressed in sweats, jogs over to his old apartment. The landlord sees him and quickly enter the leasing office. Curtis continue his jog over towards the  leasing office door, the landlord steps back out with a bunch of box of envelopes, dropping it on the door step.

“When will you get a change of address man? It’s been a 6 months and we’re still getting your junk.” Says the landlord and slams the door in his face.

Curtis picks up the box and sit on the doorstep, rummaging through the mail. A lot of nothings, but several child support notices catches his attention. He opens one up to see a NOTICE for back payment for one child of $22,000, then for another child $16,000 and one more for $28,000 dollars. Curtis looks up at the sky as in why me. He walks over to a dumpster and throws the box with all of the envelopes in it away.

TO BE CONTINUED…

Osiris Ptah Dane
will be my official name change

28

Apr

VENUS FLY TRAP!

What is really going on? Have you ever felt like you’re stuck in a cocoon? Living in life’s womb. Emotions is dusty like needing a broom.

Why does love often evaporates into fumes? We need to shout out I LOVE YOU like a sonic boom! Though love is dismantled by the darkness for which it is assume.

Thoughts of love spews and spume. Whom does LOVE forsaken? Awaken from the darkness and doubts of the past is presumed. Doomed by faults of the past, longing for this drought to pass.

Stressful enough to smoke the finest of grass. Heart beat to the tone of shattered glass. Say I love you in return without the hesitation, and or sass.

Never the less, Love is in the air… Real love have signs of truth with much room to spare. Beware of doubtful love because it will eventually lead to an unwanted affair. Just say I love you and believe it and feel it from the heart, no reason to be scared.

LOVE IS EVERYTHING THE UNIVERSE INTENDED IT TO BE… The uniting of you and me…

CUMMIN’ HARD…

RELATIONSHIP THOUGHTS FROM A GREAT MAN!

Seems like a one sided road that is a desolate path. Often frustrations is misconstrue as wrath.

A relationship with a significant others is supposed to be a bond and an uplifting growth together.

Weather the storms.

Stand strong on the course through any obstacles that may block the development of understanding and LOVE.

Communication should be the key. Without communication things will take a course into the disarray well into dismay.

There will be disagreements, nothing in the world is perfect.

Respect, honesty and belief are the main source of fuel that drives the relationship to new heights.

Respect each others love to live a great life with loyalty to one another which brings the wisdom through trials and tribulations, that together ascertaining the knowledge of togetherness with complete understanding.

Honesty is the key to peace within. It brings freedom of an open mind.

Having a closed mind in a relationship usually brings destitute. So if one has a closed mind about anything that the significant other is partaking in life then it will turn the good path into a rugged and rough road.

Belief in each others love is mandatory. If ONE doesn’t believe, doubt, or question the love then again the path will be broken, have holes and a sudden turn to the end.

Love is grand. A special sense of greatness.

So don’t let distance, egos or misperception dim the shine and a good life. Don’t let social tendencies come between what you’re building. Don’t let friends fill your ear with their lack luster & biased views that taints an already bleak vision of growth with your significant other… Never let the past effect present which definitely DAMN’S the future.

SOUNDS SIMPLE but to some on this green earth, it’s not an easy task to LOVE without DAMNING it’s existence.

Live life, be happy and just LOVE.

Written by

The Scorned Warrior

Cummin’ Hard

25

Apr

I LOVE YOU!!!
Cummin’ Hard